Sunday morning I woke up sick. The crazy thing is since I've started eating semi-clean I RARELY get sick. No colds, no headaches, no allergies. So when I'm feeling the slightest bit of ill, I'm a wuss. I stayed in bed until noon and work up HUNGRY for pancakes (or a nice belgian waffle) I decided on Culver's (fast food basically) Double cheeseburger, large fries, and a mint chocolate chip concrete (shake) Yep. All that.
It was just ok and I rarely (maybe 4x's a year) eat fast food.
Monday my stomach was not happy. At all. So in order to recover, I decided to eat only fruits & veggies until dinner.
Breakfast : Coffee, banana, orange
Lunch: Salad, peach, apple
Dinner: Salad, (w/ 1 egg) Spaghetti - (96/4 lean ground beef, whole wheat pasta, Ragu (not clean, I know)
Feeling better today.
Breakfast: Coffee, banana, orange
Lunch: Salad, (w/ 1 egg) Spaghetti
Dinner: Probably the same as lunch. No probably..lol. It will be the same as lunch.
Kind of changing up my breakfast. I need to move into making fruits & veggies my primary foods. The other stuff in smaller amounts. I know I need to add some type of protein. I was doing tuna last week with wheat thins. Maybe I'll try to do tuna w/o the wheat thins. Again, trying to get myself off of the extra processed foods.
Yes, I'm cutting calories too. I'm experimenting here. I have 35 lbs to lose and it's not moving. On one hand I want to lose the 35lbs (1 lb a week @ at at time) and be done with it. But I'm not feeling skinny fat either, so I want to build muscle as well. So I'm not sure the cutting of calories is the best solution either.
In the comments I was asked if I weight train. With weights? No. But in Title boxing we do lots of body weight training i.e core work, push-ups, squats. Is that enough or do I need to actually lift some weights?
Let me know! I need some answers :-) Right now I can see myself being skinny-fat. People keep telling me I don't need to lose 35 lbs, but I'm looking at myself naked and the flab is too much. I know my body shape. I'm a pear. I will have hips, my butt is big, and thighs to match. But I need it to be toned.
Surgery is looking like an option as well. I like my size, I just don't like the flab.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Monday, January 30, 2012
And so I weighed myself...
And I'm 190 lbs. Ummm about 10 lbs more than I thought I was. But I swear I don't feel or think I look like I weigh that. I feel like I'm 180 lbs. Swear. It's weird.
I don't know what to think about it, but I'm going with it's muscle. Yep that ol' cliche' theory. I'm my harshest critic usually so this is not me making a cop out. When I look in the mirror (naked) I can see changes and my waist is getting smaller. So whatever to the scale.
And even though I'm damning the scale I still desire to be 155 lbs this year. I tell people I still want to lose 35 lbs and they look at me crazy like that's too much to lose. But damn, 155 is still a nice (healthy) weight. And I would like to say I'm half my starting weight. From 311 to 155. So yeah...35 lbs this year. I can do that. Hell if I can lose 130 lbs I can lose 35.
Reminder to self: Fast food is of the devil. Culver's yesterday and today my stomach is DEAD. UGH.
I don't know what to think about it, but I'm going with it's muscle. Yep that ol' cliche' theory. I'm my harshest critic usually so this is not me making a cop out. When I look in the mirror (naked) I can see changes and my waist is getting smaller. So whatever to the scale.
And even though I'm damning the scale I still desire to be 155 lbs this year. I tell people I still want to lose 35 lbs and they look at me crazy like that's too much to lose. But damn, 155 is still a nice (healthy) weight. And I would like to say I'm half my starting weight. From 311 to 155. So yeah...35 lbs this year. I can do that. Hell if I can lose 130 lbs I can lose 35.
Reminder to self: Fast food is of the devil. Culver's yesterday and today my stomach is DEAD. UGH.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
A year ago....
I looked like this (230 lbs??)
This was me yesterday.....(180 lbs??)
About 50lbs gone last year. I know everyone wants I want to lose as much weight as possible in as little time as possible, but this is the result of an average weight loss of less than a 1 lb a week. I'll take it! :-)
This was me yesterday.....(180 lbs??)
About 50lbs gone last year. I know everyone wants I want to lose as much weight as possible in as little time as possible, but this is the result of an average weight loss of less than a 1 lb a week. I'll take it! :-)
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Searching for THAT feeling.
Pretty much everyone knows that I'm on the quest for weight loss. Not that I talk about it to everyone, especially not at work. But when you start losing, people notice. Then eventually people break down the barrier of silence and ask you about it. Why the barrier? People never want to be offensive which I totally get.
I used to wonder if people at work even noticed the change. AHA. They did. But they didn't want to be offensive. There is something about complete strangers taking notice that gives me confirmation that this is actually happening. I mean, its good to hear it from your friends and family. But they know you are trying to lose weight. You never know if they are just saying it to be nice or really see a difference.
But when people at work come out of their comfort zone to discuss YOUR weight. Oh yeah. They noticed and are intrigued by it. Kind of cool.
Well I said all that to say my manager stops by to talk to me about her own journey. She started back working out in September and going strong since then.Today I FELT her energy. I mean it's kind of weird that I could feel how strong she's gotten. She was so hype about her progress and her increased endurance.
I absolutely LOVE to talk tomost people who are really doing it. When I'm feeling ho-hum about my own progress (and that's how I'm feeling currently) something about hearing other people discuss their progress gets me all motivated again. Thus my obsession with love for WL blogs.
She even talked about how she hasn't lost any lbs. That's right. NONE. But she FEELS so good about her workouts that she is now looking into changing her eating habits (YES!!! THAT IS IT) Sorry, I get excited when people discover my secret. LOL
I'm glad she stopped by my office today to share her progress. I love that I'm the person people go to talk about weight, fitness, diet. WHAT. HOL'UP. Yes me. Am I becoming that fit bitch? :-)
So I'm searching for THAT feeling again. That excitement, that satisfaction with progress, that place where I'm proud of myself for doing something this year (or month) that I couldn't do last year. Of course my goal is to lose weight. But when that's not happening you have to find something else to hang your hat on.
That feeling.......
I used to wonder if people at work even noticed the change. AHA. They did. But they didn't want to be offensive. There is something about complete strangers taking notice that gives me confirmation that this is actually happening. I mean, its good to hear it from your friends and family. But they know you are trying to lose weight. You never know if they are just saying it to be nice or really see a difference.
But when people at work come out of their comfort zone to discuss YOUR weight. Oh yeah. They noticed and are intrigued by it. Kind of cool.
Well I said all that to say my manager stops by to talk to me about her own journey. She started back working out in September and going strong since then.Today I FELT her energy. I mean it's kind of weird that I could feel how strong she's gotten. She was so hype about her progress and her increased endurance.
I absolutely LOVE to talk to
She even talked about how she hasn't lost any lbs. That's right. NONE. But she FEELS so good about her workouts that she is now looking into changing her eating habits (YES!!! THAT IS IT) Sorry, I get excited when people discover my secret. LOL
I'm glad she stopped by my office today to share her progress. I love that I'm the person people go to talk about weight, fitness, diet. WHAT. HOL'UP. Yes me. Am I becoming that fit bitch? :-)
So I'm searching for THAT feeling again. That excitement, that satisfaction with progress, that place where I'm proud of myself for doing something this year (or month) that I couldn't do last year. Of course my goal is to lose weight. But when that's not happening you have to find something else to hang your hat on.
That feeling.......
Friday, January 20, 2012
It's the WEEKEND BABY (and I'm scared!)
This is a long one. Sorry in advance
Yes. Every week I get THAT excited about the weekend. Anywho. The weekends are TOUGH for me. I'm a person of routine and habit. Mon-Thurs I do very well. Packed lunches and snacks, that are pretty much the same daily with very little variety. Dinner is a "wild card" but portion controlled and healthy.
It's Friday-Sunday that gets me. YIKES. I work from home on Fridays, so I don't eat on schedule like I do when I'm in the office. The plus side is my house is junk free, so it's not a matter of me eating junk, the problem is eating. Here it is almost 9am and I have no clue what I'm going to have for breakfast (lack of planning). What I should do is stick to the routine on Fridays. Eat at home exactly how I would eat at work. Yep. Good idea. Well today the problem is a lack of groceries. I have some chicken breast unthawed so I may eat grilled chicken and a sweet potato for breakfast and a salad for lunch.
Tomorrow will be another challenge (I guess this is called...LIFE) Breakfast buffet with my family. And I will admit, it's not like a eat a whole lot at buffets because I can't. BUT I eat crap and it makes me sick. EVERYTIME. But oh how I love breakfast food. In my mind I would love to start with fruit and a salad, get myself pretty full off of that and then eat a little bit of garbage. Yes that is the plan, but Lord sticking to that is HARD when everyone around you is eating and enjoying unlimited grease. Ooh my stomach hurts just thinking about it. Taste good going down, but the aftermath is not ok. Amazing how I used to be able to handle it.
Oh. Last night I went out to eat at Cracker Barrel. Though I don't track anymore, I decided to track yesterday to see what I was going to have. Thankfully what I wanted (meatloaf, mashed potatoes, greens, and green beans) worked with the plan. I decided that I would NOT have gravy or bread or a diet coke. I semi-passed. I got gravy on the side and had about a tbs out of the gigantic bowl they brought me. I was full of course but if there was more food on the plate, I would have eaten it (problem, I know)
Yesterday in Title the trainer talked to me about getting some personal training sessions with him. He said something about I'm "beyond" the classes. WHAT SON!?! I know for sure I'm not. I can't do every rep of every set yet. I don't think there is a such thing as being beyond these classes. When it gets easy, go harder.
A part of me thinks he's just trying to sell me some sessions, but I like him (not in that way) and I trust the guy could help me get my body where I want it to be. BUT the cost is crazy. I can't afford it anyway. I would really have to sacrifice some things, and I'm not sure I want to do that now. I will just continue eating right and going to Title. Add some running in there. I know I need to do some weight training, but I suck at it. I just don't know how......
I'm actually feeling better about things again. I think being tired comes along with the journey. It's the ebb and flow of things. I'm ready to see 155 on the scale damnit! How many people can say they lost half their body weight! I'm ready for it. CLEAN EATING. PORTION CONTROL. EXERCISE.
Have a great weekend. I'll report in about the weekend..keeps me accountable.
Yes. Every week I get THAT excited about the weekend. Anywho. The weekends are TOUGH for me. I'm a person of routine and habit. Mon-Thurs I do very well. Packed lunches and snacks, that are pretty much the same daily with very little variety. Dinner is a "wild card" but portion controlled and healthy.
It's Friday-Sunday that gets me. YIKES. I work from home on Fridays, so I don't eat on schedule like I do when I'm in the office. The plus side is my house is junk free, so it's not a matter of me eating junk, the problem is eating. Here it is almost 9am and I have no clue what I'm going to have for breakfast (lack of planning). What I should do is stick to the routine on Fridays. Eat at home exactly how I would eat at work. Yep. Good idea. Well today the problem is a lack of groceries. I have some chicken breast unthawed so I may eat grilled chicken and a sweet potato for breakfast and a salad for lunch.
Tomorrow will be another challenge (I guess this is called...LIFE) Breakfast buffet with my family. And I will admit, it's not like a eat a whole lot at buffets because I can't. BUT I eat crap and it makes me sick. EVERYTIME. But oh how I love breakfast food. In my mind I would love to start with fruit and a salad, get myself pretty full off of that and then eat a little bit of garbage. Yes that is the plan, but Lord sticking to that is HARD when everyone around you is eating and enjoying unlimited grease. Ooh my stomach hurts just thinking about it. Taste good going down, but the aftermath is not ok. Amazing how I used to be able to handle it.
Oh. Last night I went out to eat at Cracker Barrel. Though I don't track anymore, I decided to track yesterday to see what I was going to have. Thankfully what I wanted (meatloaf, mashed potatoes, greens, and green beans) worked with the plan. I decided that I would NOT have gravy or bread or a diet coke. I semi-passed. I got gravy on the side and had about a tbs out of the gigantic bowl they brought me. I was full of course but if there was more food on the plate, I would have eaten it (problem, I know)
Yesterday in Title the trainer talked to me about getting some personal training sessions with him. He said something about I'm "beyond" the classes. WHAT SON!?! I know for sure I'm not. I can't do every rep of every set yet. I don't think there is a such thing as being beyond these classes. When it gets easy, go harder.
A part of me thinks he's just trying to sell me some sessions, but I like him (not in that way) and I trust the guy could help me get my body where I want it to be. BUT the cost is crazy. I can't afford it anyway. I would really have to sacrifice some things, and I'm not sure I want to do that now. I will just continue eating right and going to Title. Add some running in there. I know I need to do some weight training, but I suck at it. I just don't know how......
I'm actually feeling better about things again. I think being tired comes along with the journey. It's the ebb and flow of things. I'm ready to see 155 on the scale damnit! How many people can say they lost half their body weight! I'm ready for it. CLEAN EATING. PORTION CONTROL. EXERCISE.
Have a great weekend. I'll report in about the weekend..keeps me accountable.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
89 Simple Swaps That Could Change Your Life
From Spark I learned that you cannot do a complete overhaul on your lifestyle. Well, maybe you can, but you will get so overwhelmed by all of the changes, you will probably quit. Instead, try baby steps. Decide on changing healthy habits one at a time.
This is a really good article on simple swaps that will lead you into better health.
http://www.greatist.com/health/89-simple-swaps-that-could-change-your-life/#
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Tired.....
I decided that I was doing my best (work-out wise) when I was doing the 1k challenge. So I'm going to start that again. Taking Friday - Sunday off is no good. I also add another streak. I will ask myself daily "Would you say you ate well (portion control, freggies, conscience eating). I need to get back on track. Today is day #2.
As far as running goes. I need to START. I am only going to run 1 mile. That's it. I put too much pressure on myself to do more when I can't even get out the door.
So again, I will keep going.
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