Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Do you share your journey with those around you?

I don't.  For the most part I am a private person. I don't tell many people around me about my journey. If they ask, I indulge. If they are in the struggle, I indulge. A little more.  There are only a couple people that I confide in about my weight loss.

I was at work and I get an IM from a friend that says "hey are you on SPARK?". WHAT!?!?!

I then ask them why do they ask. She tells me that someone from her job was showing her my page.

HUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. THEY FOUND ME. MY FRIENDS HAVE FOUND OUT ABOUT MY SECRET SPARK LIFE.

I just don't know how I feel about people I KNOW knowing my struggles, how much I eat, how much I weigh, how much I used to weigh, etc. Yes, people know that I'm losing weight, but not the actual #'s. Makes me uneasy. I feel as if every time they see me they will be thinking..DANG she looks/does not look XXX lbs.
I'm a blogger, and yes I blog about pretty much everything. For some reason I feel comfortable with sharing these thoughts with the universe but NOT with my "real" friends/family. Being an anonymous blogger makes me a little bolder in what I share.

My Pastor talks a lot about sharing your testimony. YES, I do believe *one day* I will share my story to those around me. Just today I feel uneasy about it. I feel like I'm still struggling too much to do that and I can't deal with the added pressure from people around me holding me accountable (i.e watching everything I put in my mouth) or asking 50 million questions about clean eating and calorie counting. 

 On one hand I like the "privacy" of blogging only to people that don't know me personally, but on the other hand I would love to share my blog with my friends and family. You never know who will be encouraged by it. 
As you can see , I'm going back and forth with myself on this.

Is it just me? Am I being ridiculous? Do you share your story blogs with real friends?

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