Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Do you share your journey with those around you?

I don't.  For the most part I am a private person. I don't tell many people around me about my journey. If they ask, I indulge. If they are in the struggle, I indulge. A little more.  There are only a couple people that I confide in about my weight loss.

I was at work and I get an IM from a friend that says "hey are you on SPARK?". WHAT!?!?!

I then ask them why do they ask. She tells me that someone from her job was showing her my page.


I just don't know how I feel about people I KNOW knowing my struggles, how much I eat, how much I weigh, how much I used to weigh, etc. Yes, people know that I'm losing weight, but not the actual #'s. Makes me uneasy. I feel as if every time they see me they will be thinking..DANG she looks/does not look XXX lbs.
I'm a blogger, and yes I blog about pretty much everything. For some reason I feel comfortable with sharing these thoughts with the universe but NOT with my "real" friends/family. Being an anonymous blogger makes me a little bolder in what I share.

My Pastor talks a lot about sharing your testimony. YES, I do believe *one day* I will share my story to those around me. Just today I feel uneasy about it. I feel like I'm still struggling too much to do that and I can't deal with the added pressure from people around me holding me accountable (i.e watching everything I put in my mouth) or asking 50 million questions about clean eating and calorie counting. 

 On one hand I like the "privacy" of blogging only to people that don't know me personally, but on the other hand I would love to share my blog with my friends and family. You never know who will be encouraged by it. 
As you can see , I'm going back and forth with myself on this.

Is it just me? Am I being ridiculous? Do you share your story blogs with real friends?