And so I weighed myself...

And I'm 190 lbs. Ummm about 10 lbs more than I thought I was. But I swear I don't feel or think I look like I weigh that. I feel like I'm 180 lbs. Swear. It's weird.

I don't know what to think about it, but I'm going with it's muscle. Yep that ol' cliche' theory.  I'm my harshest critic usually so this is not me making a cop out. When I look in the mirror (naked) I can see changes and my waist is getting smaller. So whatever to the scale.

And even though I'm damning the scale I still desire to be 155 lbs this year. I tell people I still want to lose 35 lbs and they look at me crazy like that's too much to lose. But damn, 155 is still a nice (healthy) weight.  And I would like to say I'm half my starting weight. From 311 to 155. So yeah...35 lbs this year. I can do that.  Hell if I can lose 130 lbs I can lose 35.

Reminder to self: Fast food is of the devil. Culver's yesterday and today my stomach is DEAD. UGH.

Decisions & Choices

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I have to remember that every decision I make does one of 3 things.

Pulls me further from my goal
Pushes me closer to my goal
Keeps me in the same spot

I need to get closer to my goal so what am I doing to get there?  What are some of the choices I'm making to steer me in the direction I'm trying to go?

On the weekends I don't work out. AT ALL.  When I was doing my 1k day 10 minute challenge I was rocking the fitness minutes. When that came to an end, Friday - Sunday became super lazy days.

I stopped tracking.  I know tracking works.  But here's what I do. I track  my good days, don't track the bad ones. Now that's pretty backwards.  I should be tracking those days I go overboard so I can see why I'm not losing weight anymore.

I stopped running.  Not that running helped me lose a gang of weight (I'm still adamant about weight loss being more about what you eat) But running did lean me out. Definitely. Why did I quit? Ummm 'cause it's hard!  Coward.

Lack of portion control eating out. I eat ALL my food and that there is a problem.  Why can't I just eat some and put the rest away? Almost 5 years later and I still don't know. I call it being greedy, but there has to be another issue right?  Maybe I lost that function in my brain that says "hey, you are full. Stop eating now" Or maybe I just can't stand seeing that little bit of food going to waste. Or maybe I hate leftovers.  Who knows.

But there are some things I know I am doing right. I continue to pack my breakfast and lunch for work. Lots of fruit, lots of veggies are being eaten by yours truly. When I grocery shop, I NEVER buy junk food. No chips, no cookies, no ice cream.

Still going to Title Boxing 3-4 days a week. And I must say we go HARD!

But the very best thing I'm doing that pushes me closer to my goal..... I NEVER GIVE UP.  I start over every single day.  Bad dinner last night? I'm packing my breakfast and lunch today.

 I'm not perfect, but I believe that I'm consistent in some things and that is why I will get there. Eventually.

HAPPY NEW YEAR & What's in store for 2012



Totally NOT true, but this is funny!
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Well hello there and Happy New Year!

I know my last post said I was "maintaining" for the holidays, but yea. No. I'm sure I've gained.  I can't even bring myself to get on the scale. I don't want to know.  If it says 200 anything, I may lose my mind.
Today is my first day wearing real clothes in 2 weeks. I've been wearing my jeggings and leggings every single day on vacation.  The wonderful (or not so wonderful) thing about them is they expand and are oh so comfy.  Wearing real clothes sucks today.  Got on my size 14 jeans and thank God they have a little stretch in them, but unfortunately I'm rocking a muffin top right now. 

Yesterday was my first day back at Title and WHEWWWW. 2 weeks off is no joke. The trainer asked me why was I breathing so hard. Shoot man. I'm tired!  It was tough but I'm glad I went.

In a strange way I'm hoping that the gain gets me out of my plateau.  Everyone pretty much agrees that your body starts to get used to your new lifestyle and starts conforming to it. Maybe the gain shakes my body up and getting back on track now will give me a boost and I can drop some lbs and inches quickly. 

So what's in store for me?

I thought I would have some lofty goals all written out, but I don't. I just keep coming back to pressing forward.  I know what works for me.  Calorie counting, eating clean, exercise.  So that's what I'll continue to do. 

I want to change the way my body looks. Not just lose weight.  I don't want to be "skinny fat". Ya know what I mean? Looks great in clothes, but all flabby underneath. I want to tone up. With that said, not sure if I should be focusing on losing weight or gaining muscle at this point. 

Of course running is on my mind. I can't lie. My mental game is OFF when it comes to running. I can't bring myself to get out the door and just do it. It's really sad and pathetic. Last year I had a goal to run a 5k. This year of course I want to run a 1/2.  I got away with minimum training running the 5k.  But I know that won't fly this time. Running is HARD. Period. I think I expect to much of myself when it comes to running. At this point, I'm not sure I can run 3 miles and that's disappointing. So instead of actually trying, I do nothing. How dumb is that?


So since this is getting long..I'll end it here. Super excited about the year to come and trying to hit goal (155 lbs, and 1/2 my starting weight) this year. I can do this!

September Weigh-in/Measurements Results!

9/1/11

Weight: 198
High Waist: 32.5
Low Waist:  34
Hips: 45
Thigh: 25.5
Calf: 17.25
Upper arm: 12.5

9/30/11

Weight: 189
HW: 30.5
LW: 32
Hips: 44
Thigh: 25
Calf: 17
UA: 12


6.5 inches and 9lbs down this month!!

Nutrition Review: Started tracking my food again eating between 1300-1600 calories. A couple of days of 18k and oh OVERATE during the Labor day holiday (water weight had me seeing 200 on the scale!)
Started eating chicken for breakfast instead of turkey sausage so much and that has helped decrease my sodium intake.  Ate Edy's ice cream VERY often.  Not very clean, but so satisfying. Still need to lay off the salt when cooking.

Exercise Review: Slacked a whole lot on DC but started Bridge to 10k program and Title Boxing 3x's a week.  Still going strong on my streak.


Next months goals:

Weight - 184
1 inch gone from all places
Dance Central daily for at least 10 minutes



LET'S GO!!!!!!!!

2011 - KEEP IT SIMPLE

This is the theme for me this year. No more tricks, no more gimmicks. That crap just doesn't work.


Tricks and gimmicks? For me it was not eating right, but working out 90minutes a day in cardio. Yes, it helps me lose ...only for a while. But what then happens is I get burned out.

This is my 3rd year on SP and still over 200lbs! I have yet to make it to Onederland. Something has got to change.
I've resisted changing my eating habits as long as I could and its not working.

For the past month I have been tracking my calories and being completely (I think) honest about what I'm consuming. I'm averaging 1,750 calories a day.

And I swear this is the BEST eating I've EVER done. That's scary huh???

My goals this year:

Track daily

Weekly calories average: 1,500

Exercise: 150 cardio minutes, ST 2x's a week

Run a 5k (seriously)



Thats it! There's the plan.

SN: No more fast food, 90% clean eating (some things I can't control)