*It's hard. To me, long distance running is the epitome of fitness. It takes training, endurance, strength..all the things I think of when I think "athlete".
*It's not fun to me. I mean, I love the feeling when I'm done. I love the feeling of being able to run, but honestly I don't wake up happy to go for a run. I do it because I have to and I know I want to run long distances. I am hoping that I turn in to a real runner. You know the type that just leisurely goes for 18 mile runs on Saturdays because they love it. Yeah. Maybe. One day.
*I'm doing this all by myself and must be self-motivated to walk out the door. Unlike Title Boxing there is no set schedule, no instructor, no friends to go with me, no one rooting me on as I huff and puff through it.
*I'm not an athlete. Never have been. Running is for athletes only. Not clinically obese people. It's impossible for an obese person to run.
*I'm really not good at it. Well let me say, I'm not where I *think* I should be. I guess I *think* I should be able to walk out the door and be able to run 45 minutes each and every time. That's ridiculous. I know.
*I'm scared I CAN'T do it. I'm scared I WON'T do it.
So those are the reasons I am afraid of verbally expressing my desire to run a 1/2 marathon (and eventually a full marathon) Just seems at this point pretty far fetched and out there. I'm barely running a 5k at this point.
All this negative talk. So unproductive. So let me switch this blog up on a positive note!
*I can run a 5k. Easy? Nope. But I can do it
*I can't wait to be able to say something like "oh today is my long run, 10 miles" and shock the hell outta folks.
*I want this. I know it's hard but that's why err'body ain't doin it (busting out my slang, get used to it)
*I've overcome a lot in this journey, this is just another thing for me to accomplish. I won't allow fear to set me back!
So I need to have a "come to Jesus" with myself and realize the following:
*There will be days I don't feel like it. Do it anyway. Get it done!
*The winter is coming. Real runners run in non-perfect conditions all the time.
*All runs won't be good runs. Doing something is more than doing nothing.
* JUST DO IT. STOP DREAMING ABOUT IT
So these are just a lot of my thoughts right now. I just want to do this and prove to myself that I'm capable of things I set my mind to.
FEAR - False Evidence Appearing Real